Jounan

It has happened once a-fucking-gain! A girl has wavered back and forth, never gave me a straight answer to anything. Before she told me that i was just a friend.. now that she can't even see me irl :/ It isn't the first time either..

So, okey! Hi! *breathes* It's been a while, mostly because i've been REALLY down as of lately. This wasn't helped by the fact that i got horribly Friend-zoned :S As i was flirting with this girl (we've been flirting INTENSLY for 4 months) It all seemed good, during my down she told me "Oh, you're the ultimate dreamguy for me! But.. it's just that this guy won't tell me if he wants to continue or not. I don't want to two-time ,you know?" Sure i thought, no worries. Who the fuck want to be with a guy that flat-out tells you "i just want to have someone to fuck, you're not special to me"... She wants apparently. So she tells me "we're just f

Before i felt the touch of another person (who wasn't disgusted by the idea) I loved being alone. I felt happy being alone. Now that i know how it feels i simply can't go back to that feeling. I hate this.. i sit here all alone, no one to talk to really. People either work or go to school.. or are with their families. I wish i had a girl, someone i could touch, kiss and cherish. Someone who enjoyed that i smothered them with love.. who don't go the next guy when they get used to it. I want a mate.. and the coming of spring doesn't really help. It's times like these that feel that i am nothing but an animal. I desperatly want someone to scra